The Disconcert Of My Being

I

Stood in the middle of a room-full of people

I

Waited for someone to show me

The way to a place where I belong

I

Saw them – familiar faces moving around me

In precise fashion – I knew them all along

I

Reached to touch their shadow –

Their cool face staring at me

I

Just learnt – nobody saw me

In that room-full of people

– How Tragic!!

                              ~ Ann 97

I don’t like this feeling

I don’t like you anymore

You’re messing up my life

It’s upside down – inside out

I’m walking on a thin ice

I could fall anytime now

                              ~ Ann 97

Whenever I was paralyzed by fear

Whenever I felt the tentacles of panic

Crawling in my veins

Whenever I felt so unsure

Whenever I think of my future

I never thought of  you

You were never there

And yet… I am dating you

Who am i waiting for?

                              ~ Ann 97

Space, Star & Me

From the beginning

I had always drawn to the space

The hundred thousand million of  stars

Do you know that they are all million light years away?

Have you ever seen anything as

mesmerizing and intimidating as the stars?

What hardship, what sufferings they must have endure

Across the vacum of the galaxy

So that we can enjoy the evening lightshow

Like angels watching over us

- Lost souls looking up with blank eyes

A mute pleading, a desperate prayer

That could only echo in the heart,

Everytime I stare

I became lost – dreamily floating among the stars

I raised my hand to touch their shimmering light – they looked so intimately close

But my hand could only feel the

Cold glass of the frosted window

A surge of deep hollow sadness

and loss

Wretched my heart

~ I know you will watch over me

~ I know when I feel lost and hopeless

~ I will look for you

~ and borrow your strength

~ When I am so out of love.. You will always be there..

                              ~ Ann 97